Hopefully, you were able to catch my live post on Friday where I shared briefly what this post would entail. Just me, intentionally carving out time to pour my heart into writing a post of gratitude for my incredible readers. Several months ago, the boys and I went to the library and borrowed another Elephant and Piggie book. The final installment of one of our favorite book series, a saga of an elephant named Gerald and his pig best friend, Piggie. The “Thank You Book” ends with the two friends thanking their loyal readers, and I have been mentally writing this post ever since we read it.
When I started blogging, my oldest son was six months old, my days were long and confusing. Often, I got in bed with leaky boobs and a sense of longing for something I couldn’t identify. I wanted to feel like I was enough, I wanted to feel settled and secured. Yet, every time I left home I was surrounded by people boasting their jobs, their missed incomes, their lost identity. I began to question why I didn’t yearn for that, was I settling for being a mom? So, I wanted more. I started looking for always greener grass.
I wanted something, even if it was ten minutes that provided me self care. So, I began to write. I wanted to be an expert on something, but only seemed to be an expert on trial and error. I was an expert on being anxious, confessing my insecurities, making a frugal life a fun one, and having fun with my baby. It was through blogging I began to allow myself to feel totally content in my role as a mother. Allowing myself a few moments of guilt free writing, including some of my (hopefully) beautiful photos, I no doubt enjoyed taking, provided me the outlet I so desperately needed to thrive in my role.
I had learned so much from the internet, and wondered if I could offer anything to the few people reading my words. Favorite recipes, tips for activities with kids, or simply the feeling of knowing they aren’t alone. Every morning, with pride, I’d wake up and write a quick piece. Documenting the joys, the worries, the good, the somber, filling my website with content on parenting and homemaking.
It would be months before I’d be approached by a baby painting supplies company asking to do a collaboration. It was something so exciting to me to discover my blog was being read by a non-toxic arts company for littles. I began to imagine what it would be like to support my growing family through my work as a blogger. (I had just learned baby number 2 would be joining us!)
Around this time, something else begin to happen. People started to email with grateful messages, thanking me for my transparency. Sharing how much they appreciated my realistic style, my budgeting tips, and the way my writing made them feel. The women struggling with post partum depression, anxiety, the women in desperate need of practical tips for homemaking. The women who were tired of reaching for unattainable standards, and wanted permission to practice self care. The emails and comments and praises started to come regularly, which for someone whose love language is words of affirmation meant so much. I began to feel like through my work as a proud stay at home mother, I was beginning to help others. Could I be some type of missionary from my guest room office, linked right up with this very hard drive. I was giving people permission to be proud of what they are doing, and it was empowering to me.
In 2015, I re-branded and began to devote more and more of time and energy into this website. Through this blog, through writing about my own journey as a new mother, I have found a sense of fulfillment and happiness I can’t describe. All week, I had been looking forward to attending an event at Room & Board in downtown Portland. A bloggers event, and I was invited. I would get to enjoy some delicious food, drinks, and a beautiful design experience. Somehow, I couldn’t stop thinking of all my little blog has allowed me to accomplish and share with my friends and my family.
It is so important to me that you know how special you all make me feel when you read, share, link, or comment on a blog post. I put so much of my heart into this page, I’m more vulnerable than I ever knew I could be. Through your support I’ve been able to travel more with my family, give more generously in my community, work with many companies, and heal past wounds of my life. I am overwhelmed by your kindness and support. I put in a lot more work here than you may know. Editing photos, writing content, even partnering with companies to share my favorite products. I hope you know when you read something I write it comes directly from my heart, curated just for you, my target audience.
I look forward to many more years of encouraging you, laughing with you throughout life’s seasons, and planning to live our best lives side by side. I hope you’ll join me in a few weeks when I go live on my newest adventure! A podcast!